Sunday, July 29, 2012

The Countdown

I figured that knowing what day Emily is leaving for Austin would make it easier but I am finding that isn't exactly the case.  I can't imagine what it feels like for her, knowing that her life will be going through such a big change in twelve short days.  But it is also a big change for me.  I was telling Brett about it tonight and I think it finally sank in.  We have always had a distance relationship and it hasn't always been easy but we have made it work really well.  But Austin is on another level.  I am excited for her and excited for my chances to go visit a city like Austin because I love new experiences.  With that being said, it's still scary for both of us.  In twelve days I will not have the power to run to see Emily on the weekend if I want to, or run to see Emily if one of us is having a bad day.  Skype will keep us close and I think that will allow us to survive it.  

I never wanted another long distance relationship but I think that it has allowed Emily and I to become best friends over the last few years and for that I am very thankful.  We can really spend time together knowing that we are not taking each other for granted.  I may not always be the best at communicating, but I am confident that we can have a great relationship while we each finish out our schooling.  I think that is the beauty in my relationship with Emily, being best friends allows everything else to just fill in the blank spaces.  Loving her is easy to do.  

But knowing that the countdown has begun I am starting to be overwhelmed.  But that pales into comparison to how she feels.  

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Twenty + Seven

I turned 27 two days ago.  It came and went like a summer's breeze, mostly without it every feeling like my birthday.  I kept to myself, stayed at home and that's about all of the excitement of my day.  People have asked what turning 27 feels like, probably to be polite, or to strike up conversation, but the answer remained the same: turning 27 feels no different than turning 26 or 25.  I honestly wouldn't have noticed if my mom hadn't been asking all day what I wanted to to or what I wanted to eat.  I celebrated my birthday a few days early by going to Colorado with my parents and Emily to see The Avett Brothers and the mountains so I shouldn't say that I didn't have an exciting birthday.  I had one goal in mind for my birthday and that was to work on the desk that I am building.  I was home alone so the project didn't go like I had wanted but I got a majority of it done by myself.

The most interesting thing about my birthday was seeing how many people remembered that it was my day of birth.  Most people know what it is like to have a birthday if you are on Facebook; notifications all day long from people you know and some you don't really know.  As Brett put it, "It is nice to feel like a celebrity for a day, but it is annoying." I have taken my birthday off so I had a record low for notifications this year which was honestly kind of nice.

I would consider the past year to be one of great productivity for myself and one that has seen many happy memories.  My friends got married, I started dating Emily, I went to many great concerts, I decided to move to Manhattan, I worked on many big projects around my house and school was better than I imagined it would go.  So thank you to everyone who made the year special.  I don't feel any older, and I don't feel any different.  I am just thankful for another year to enjoy my friends and family.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Change

Do you ever feel like you are making the wrong choices and the walls are closing in on you?  I had  something that felt like a panic attack last night while I was trying to sleep because I just feel like I'm making the wrong choices going into this semester.  I think it is just the idea of big change that freaks me out a little.  I'm afraid to mess up the life I have had.  I afraid to lose the people in my life I care for the most. I am afraid that by moving to Manhattan I will revert to the person I used to be, the person I worked very hard to get rid of.  That is the biggest concern I have.  I know I am going to be living with two great people and I have a lot of friends I can count on to lend me their ear if I need to talk but I haven't been able to talk to anyone about it, not even my girlfriend.  I feel like I have been dishonest with people because I haven't shared what's going on.  This weekend was a big eye-opener for me because last night I finally saw that by keeping everything in, letting it build up, I have started being the person I used to be.  I don't like it at all.  I guess it is a positive I could tell what was going on so now I can make sure to be open and honest.  It should be easy, right?  If only that were always the case.  With Love.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Janet

It is the weekend before finals week and just after dead week and I think dead week lived up to it's name again this year.  I had a final every single day except thursday, which was spent finishing my website for Exceptional Child.  It was a long week and it hasn't slowed down one bit.  I have to re-do my lesson plan final for my Core Teaching Skills lab because apparently I missed the memo on not using narrative books for second graders because it will "confuse them."I also have a take-home final due monday (our class was informed that if we simply turn it in we will get an A) and then two finals next week.  So far my finals have gone pretty well.  I received two B's on my practice Praxis exam but that is actually a good grade for the class from what I understand.  That put my grade in that class at a 90.8; I have heard that to receive and A in the class you need a 94, but that has yet to be confirmed.  I am ready for summer.  How about everyone else out there?

The real reason I wanted to blog today was because I heard an amazing story yesterday during my Culture and Language class that I just wanted to share.  We had a pizza party to celebrate the end of the year and to just chat with everyone and say our goodbyes.  We had a lot of cool stories that were shared throughout the semester because it is a diverse class with a lot of different backgrounds and races being represented.  It was nice just to say thanks to the people in the class for sharing their views and thoughts because sometimes it is hard to share your views in a class like that.

One of the men in the class, Pedro, hails from the Congo, by way of Portugal.  He brought a guitar and sang us two songs that he had written himself, to share his life stories.  One was in the native language of the Congo, and the other in Portuguese so you could not really understand him, but the emotions conveyed in the song translated just the same.  The first song was written about a moment that changed Pedro's life.  It occurred during Apartheid in South Africa. Pedro became friends with a caucasian woman named Janet, who had been fighting against the apartheid; it was a very rare thing at that time to see a white woman protesting and fighting against this view.  Pedro had been visiting Janet one day when she received a package in the mail.  She had been expecting one and was excited for it so she asked Pedro to stay for awhile.  He couldn't stay so he left to be on his way.  Moments later, as he was leaving the building, he heard a loud noise and the building shook.  Inside the package that Janet had received was a bomb.  It killed her and her young daughter.

To hear Pedro share this story was so moving, as was his beautiful voice and song.  I am sure some of the details are wrong because it was hard to really focus and remember because everyone was just caught up in it but that story is fairly accurate.  It was such a powerful moment in our class and one you will rarely find in classes these days.  It definitely made getting another endorsement in ESOL worth it, just that moment.

I hope everyone is getting through their semesters okay and are still plugging away because summer is just around the corner!

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Crazy Talk

This week has been perfect. Well, almost. I spent the whole time eating good food, relaxing, watching season 4 of Dexter and seeing most of my favorite people in the world. I worked on homework here and there (should have done that more) and enjoyed the weather. It rained all week in Emporia and I honestly wouldn't have had it any other way; sorry everyone who was hoping for rain, I finally got to enjoy my rainy days with Emily. I also got a whole bunch of new music that I am excited to listen to. I am finishing up a long day working on my PLT Packet for Educational Psychology and then I will finally be ready for class tomorrow. This week has just made me want to say crazy things, but I enjoy a little crazy talk every once in a while. I hope everyone had a good break from the stress, rigor and anxiety that school brings; I know I did. And then some.


With Love,
Ian

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

The Head and The Heart

Josh McBride and Oh, Virginia by The Head and The Heart

Now I'm a stranger in someone else's home
All that I'm asking for is a place to call my own
Just a place to call my own.


The Head and The Heart were such a great live show. It was a pretty chill concert but they have great harmonies and they seem like really wonderful people, enjoying what they do for a living. Enjoy this acoustic performance.

Monday, March 12, 2012

Smooth

Hello ladies and gentlemen. I haven't blogged in awhile because there hasn't been anything noteworthy to blog about. Life has been going smoothly lately, which has been wonderful. The month of February and March have been very busy so far, keeping me on the road almost every weekend but I have had a blast. I got to see The Head and the Heart for Emily's birthday and they put on a great show at The Granada. Yesterday I went to see The Avett Brothers perform at The Orpheum theater in Wichita and I can say that it was quite possibly the best show I have seen. They played almost 30 songs and played a few unplugged tunes in there. This weekend was as close to a perfect weekend as you can get. I hope everyone else is doing well out there, especially with spring break coming up!